the conundrum (see post below)

I flew to jo'burg today and was beginning to feel that delicate tickle in the back of the throat that heralds a dry sore throat, and my nose started literally dripping. Normally that would be 'so what' , take some Med lemon or influedo and carry on. But now circumstances are different, I have to take notice, I have to listen, get advice etc. First advice from my gorgeous gp - "go to bed and cancel work. You cannot afford to give the energy, you need it for yourself."
I listened - canceled my coaching appointment and went to bed. I phone Miriam and ask for a long distance attunement. We have an exquisite time of focus and stillness.
Cannot bear to cancel my programme tomorrow... phoned Steve - he wanted me to speak to the oncologist. I did. she says: "go to a doctor, be examined. Only the doctor can decide on examination if you need anti-biotics. Have a blood test."

I feel fine - just my nose is dripping but I begin to get concerned at the possibilities. Ray kindly takes me to his doctor. A welcoming gp of the family doctor variety, thorough, interested and conservative in the helpful way. I do not have a bacterial infection, I just have a drippy nose. Take Corenza C he says and let me know how you are when you finish your chemo sessions... .
The challenge in all of this is how to increase my own sensitivity to my body's state and needs, be cognizant that my desires to do what I want, have in the past, overridden my body's messages, listen to other people's expertise and still make up my own mind and think for myself. Especially when I feel so well and only intellectually know that actually there is quite a process going on in my body. And that this awesome body of mine does its work so brilliantly that I am not even aware of how hard it is working. It is quite confusing.
Currently - I am back in bed, Lali has made some delicious smelling chicken soup for supper, I will have a bath with Eucalyptus oil, an early night and happily step into my Foundation Course tomorrow! How good to be with my friends Ray and Lali where I am so very at home.