a harder week

This morning was one of those days when my gratitude for living in Cape Town just bursts wide open. Steve and I have just returned from a walk in Clifton/Camps Bay .. the Atlantic a magnificent turquoise, the sun warm, the breeze just right and early enough that there were not too many people about. Beauty all around. A luscious breakfast on the sea front and a gentle return saunter, followed by the magnificent drive home along the Twelve Apostle mountains and through Hout Bay. Divine! Sorry for those of you in the winter hemisphere.. come here!
This chemo week has been the hardest so far. Although the fatigue was not as intense, I experienced a low level debilitation in different ways. It may be the cumulative effect of the chemo, but my energy did not return with as much abundance as in the previous two sessions. I seem to go more into myself when I experience this, in a retreating kind of way. Mindfulness meditation and attunement have been stabilizing forces.

Tomorrow I travel to Johannesburg for two days and I trust that my energy will support me well. I am not facilitating but rather assisting a client in some redesign of a process that we will deliver in December. It will be stimulating, challenging and fun.
Yesterday was a beautiful day and I decided to begin the process of tanning my naked head. So armed with sun cream factor 60 (!)slathered on my head I sat at the pool for a while enjoying the  direct warmth and imagining a perfect light tan the colour of my face. Nothing happened! is 60 too high? I am definitely getting ready to bare all in public but a white white head - that is not cool! And my poor eyebrows .. they have half disappeared.. I have short ones now. Later today Talia is going to teach me how to paint good eye brows on so that I don't look surprised or maybe angry by just drawing them on willy nilly! Oh vanity.
That is all for today - I have to prepare for my Joburg stint.